A New Generation of Motherhood

Every night, between 4:30 and 5:00 I go in the kitchen, I turn on my stereo and jack up the volume. I start preparing whatever meal it is we are going to eat that night and listen to whatever music suits my mood. Yesterday was a Marilyn Manson mood for the simple reason I was frustrated and needed to hear some angry music. I blared AntiChrist Superstar the entire time I cooked our pasta dinner. But as I was doing this I was thinking how strange it was that me, being a 28 year old mother of two children under 10, was listening to this music while cooking for my family. Now being 28 and being a Manson fan is nothing unusual, but being a stay at home mom of a daughter who loves Hannah Montana and Taylor Swift and a son that is obsessed with Spongebob and Wow Wow Wubzy did make the whole situation somewhat comical. I mean there I was in my tank top and pj pants, hair up with only some 8g earrings and a tongue ring as evidence of my former teenage years, singing along to Manson while the kids are playing the next room. Doesn't this seem a little strange to anyone else? I mean music is music and everyone has their own tastes but it's very different then when I was a kid.
When I was little my mom was already older then most of the other moms of kids my age. She was 34 when I was born which had her being born in the 40's. Not long after WWII as a matter of fact. So she grew up in a very different time with very different parents. But I grew up hearing music from the 50's, 60's and a little bit from the 70's. Mostly motown hits and such. Then when I was old enough I was introduced to 80's music by my sister who is 10 years older then me. So I got to hear lots of Motley Crue, Metallica, Guns N Roses, Cinderella, Poison, etc. Then finally the 90's rolled around. Unfortunately I was very into R&B and rap during the first part of the 90's. Now some of it was ok but I missed out on a wonderful opportunity to really experience bands like Nirvana, I'm making up for that now though. I think I have very eclectic  musical taste. Thanks to my high school music teacher, Mr. James Foster, I came to appreciate musicals and opera for the beautiful art form that it is. I was introduced to Broadway musicals such as Phantom of the Opera, Jekyll and Hyde, Les Miserables and Footloose.  I love them all and I really think everyone should experience at least one musical in their lifetime.
It all just makes me wonder how music affects our lives. I have always used music as a therapist, a friend, a comforter, and a place to escape to. Whenever I felt down or depressed I was always able to find the perfect song to describe how I was feeling and ultimately make me feel better. Songs make me laugh, they make me cry and they make me want to run around the house shaking my butt. But do we really acknowledge how it affects us? I mean we all hear a song that reminds us of our childhood. For me it's Baby Love or Do Wah Diddy. Those songs make me feel good and instantly take me back to whatever house we were living in at the time and all those feelings and memories come rushing back. I can almost smell the food my mom cooked, I picture exactly how my room looked and how I felt in that very moment. It's amazing.
So I just wonder, when my kids grow up will they remember me in the kitchen cooking pasta and listening to Marilyn Manson? Will they remember me driving them to Walmart listening to Nirvana unplugged? Will their favorite memories be associated with the songs that caused such a stink when I was a kid? But then, what good music hasn't caused a stink at some point? I can't change my musical taste just so my kids will remember me as the perfect Norman Rockwell mom. But I can introduce them to music that changed the world. People like Marilyn Manson, Kurt Cobain, Jonathan Davis (Korn), the guys of Metallica, all of them have changed the face of music. Just like Lady Gaga is doing today. She may not be everyone's favorite but she will be remembered for her mark in music history.
We are the new generation of motherhood. We are the mothers who grew up in the grunge decade and idolized people like Eddie Veddor and Kurt and Courtney (no wonder there are so many of us getting divorced huh? LOL). Our kids are growing up with a new way of thinking, tattoos are ok, my Mom and Dad have them. Piercings? eh..nothing big there, my Mom has a tongue ring. Purple hair? Who cares? my mom dyes her hair all the time. Bad words in a song? No biggie, that's just artistic expression. What will our kids be like when they grow up? I don't really know...but I think...I'm gonna like it.

Slacker...

Slacker...that's what I keep calling myself. I haven't exercised since last week and I feel pretty bad about it. But I need to get back to it. I feel better when I'm exercising. But it's so easy to wake up in the morning and just get the kid ready for school, go take a shower and then sit around and do nothing. I mean I don't do nothing, I cook, I clean, I take care of Carson all day long. But it's so much easier to sit down with a good book then to get up and work out. LOL But I know I need it. Slacker, slacker, slacker....
I just read this article about people who blogged about losing weight and it actually helped. But I figure those people actually had readers, unlike me. So I don't feel responsible to anyone. So you people out there need to start reading so I feel like someone is depending on me. LOL I am still eating pretty well so that's good. I made cupcakes today and had a couple, they were mini cupcakes so it's not like I ate two huge cupcakes but still...Plus they were made with yogurt and olive oil instead of butter or shortening. So that's a good thing. But unfortunately the icing was mainly sugar and butter. LOL But still no sugary drinks so that's a good thing. I don't really miss the sugar anyway. I got a coke at Denny's but that was the first one in a while. But bottom line is I need to get back to exercising. That's the only way I am going to actually lose weight. Too bad there isn't some magic pill to make it all go away. LOL

Baby, It's Cold Outside!

Well ladies and gents, it's frickin' cold outside. LOL I think it's supposed to get down to like 7 tonight. It would definitely suck to be an animal tonight. I like the cold, don't get me wrong, I just don't enjoy not being able to get warm. The main reason I enjoy the cold is because I can wear the warm clothes and sit by the fire. It makes it feel all cozy in the house, well when it's warm, which it's not...not right now anyway. The wood burning stove is not putting out enough heat at the moment. But I'll fix that shortly. ;)

Well on to another topic...Christmas. It was lots of fun. The kids got so much stuff we will have to get rid of old stuff so we have room for everything. But hey, that's what Christmas is for right? LOL I got lots of wonderful stuff as well. My husband always finds me the best jewelry and clothes. He knows what I like almost more then I do. Which is wonderful cause he always gets me awesome stuff. He's just the bestest husband ever anyway. So yeah, Christmas was good.

So next on my list of topics was my  attempt to lose some weight before summer. I started out strong last week, walking a mile every morning and drinking lots of water. But then we had snow days this monday and tuesday and I slept in. So I didn't walk my mile. I'm slacking. But I plan on getting back to it tomorrow. I didn't do it this morning just cause I was so freaking cold I needed to take a shower to warm up. And I hate exercising after taking a shower, then you're all sweaty and the shower was pointless. LOL But tomorrow I will definitely do it again and keep going. I am determined to get into an old pair of jeans I've had forever by summer time. We have changed the way we eat too, lots more fish and less red meat. I haven't been frying anything  and we've been eating a lot of fresh veggies. I have almost completely cut out sugar and have been drinking a lot of water. I feel better. But I do still crave sweet things. I usually just drink some crystal light or something to help with that. So as of now I haven't lost any weight yet but I'm working on it. And that's all that really matters right? Right.

Next on my list is making more crafts. I want to do a show in August in Dover again, Ozark Memories Day. And I need to stock up on my stuff to sell. So I plan to have my hemp jewelry as always, maybe some crocheted hats and scarves and possibly baby blankets. I just learned how to make halter tops out of old t-shirts so I'm gonna try to get a lot of those to sell also. I think they will do well. Especially since it will be August and August is really hot in Arkansas. So we'll see. I need to start going to some flea markets and second hand stores to find some cool shirts to use. OH!!! and I am going to start making my own pendants with resin. I think they will sell really well with the hemp necklaces. I am thinking of using real leaves and flowers in them. I think it'll be cool. Plus it'll all be hand made and one of a kind. Can't beat that. :) I hope you all come out when I'm there. My prices are low and it's all good quality stuff.

But anyway..times for me to log off for now. I don't have any followers yet so I don't know who I'm talking to but whoever reads this I hope you enjoyed it. LOL Stay warm people!